November 2011
1 post
For the first time in my life, I feel like I don’t know who I really am. I know it sounds whack, but I’ve started doubting my wardrobe. Should I be wearing this stuff? Do I even like it? Should I buy more stuff, or is it just like a mid-life crisis? I don’t know anymore. I just want to break down all the time and cry because I have no one I can rely on, I can’t trust...
July 2011
12 posts
Hahahahahahaha!
First, you tell me I’m the bitch and that you’ll cut me. Then you don’t even have the guts to hold eye contact with me, let alone confront me. Secondly, you send me an anonymous message like the coward you are. Then you post on your blog that if it was you, it wouldn’t have been anonymous. How funny that you posted it on your blog, where I possibly might not have seen it....
Okay, so I'm still alive which is awesome.
But I don’t know how long this’ll be for. She found my blog and left some anon hate, so I’m sure that will continue. Fuck, she said she’s going to fuck me up, cut me, you name it - she’s said it. But whatever, she doesn’t phase me. I did nothing to her so whatever.
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trashydreamers:
ONE TEASPOON ORIGINAL BONITAS SZ 8 AGED COAL
reblog to be in the draw, clearing out wardrobe and wont get much $$ if i sell so thought i would just give away to one of my lovely folllowers! draw on july 30th with my other giveaways
MUST FOLLOW ME
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trashydreamers:
Friend of Mine High Wasted Shorts, Size 8 US 4 RRP $209
Clearing out my wardrobe and thought i would give to one of my sexy followers
winner will be drawn same day as american flag top (July 30th)
must be following meeeeee, no likes
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Feel free to ask any questions
FREE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW, MUST BE...
trashydreamers:
Tag says Angel Biba, Brought in Melbourne, Size 8, barely worn good condition so i thought id give to one of my followers. Accidently deleted my original give away so just reblog again
MUST BE FOLLOWING;
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
feel free to ask questions, 100% legit, reblog all you like. winner drawn on July 30th when i come back...
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
ONE TEASPOON ORIGINAL BONITAS SZ 8 AGED COAL
reblog to be in the draw, clearing out wardrobe and wont get much $$ if i sell so thought i would just give away to one of my lovely folllowers! draw on july 30th with my other giveaways
MUST FOLLOW ME
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
Friend of Mine High Wasted Shorts, Size 8 US 4 RRP $209
Clearing out my wardrobe and thought i would give to one of my sexy followers
winner will be drawn same day as american flag top (July 30th)
must be following meeeeee, no likes
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Feel free to ask any questions
FREE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW, MUST BE...
trashydreamers:
Tag says Angel Biba, Brought in Melbourne, Size 8, barely worn good condition so i thought id give to one of my followers. Accidently deleted my original give away so just reblog again
MUST BE FOLLOWING;
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
feel free to ask questions, 100% legit, reblog all you like. winner drawn on July 30th when i come back...
I never did anything to you.
Yet I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out while you’re telling everyone lies about me and spreading rumours.
Never been this scared to go to school in my life.
It's been really nice knowing all of you.
I may have to quite Tumblr. It’s a weirdish story, but I have a feeling it would make my life easier if I did. I love tumblr so much, and the people on it have just been amazing. But a lot of people haven’t been amazing, they’ve let me down and in one case Tumblr has made my life a lot difficult. I know this sounds weird and over-dramatic, but I really hope I can stay. I will try...
June 2011
49 posts
Fuck you.
You think I’m stupid. But I’m much smarter than you give me credit for. I found out you dumb lying fuck.
LOL.
Some dude just said that he wishes that gifs had sound. I have been waiting for someone to say this for so long so that I can tell them that it would be a fucking video if it had sound, but he thinks he’s tumblr famous so all his little followers would be like omgg datz so0o0o0o mean dnt dizz ur jst jelouzz!!!1!!!!11!!1!!!!11!1!!
Holy fucking ball sack.
Hate being stuck outside. ARCTIC WINDS.
Ah shit, there goes my 8:30 bed time plan.
Someone just knocked on my window, and I'm not...
Fucked over and over and over again.
I need to learn to hold a grudge, because before you know it I would have forgiven you, and I’ll be wrapped around your little finger.
Someone just sent me a message saying I should...
So I guess, if you need/want advice you can always drop me a message (preferably on your account so I can reply to your inbox - but hey, if you wanna go anon that’s fine I guess) and I’ll give you the way I do or would deal with it, to the best of my ability.
Pretty much my best friend from school is leaving to go to Germany tomorrow for fucking ages. What to do with my life for the next month and a bit? I don’t know.
I actually feel really bad now. Because lately my mum has been really nice to me, and I don’t see her during the week because I live with my aunty so I only get weekends with her, my brother and my dad but I always make plans, like legit I’ve only spent like 1 weekend with them in the past 8, but I was sick so I pretty much slept the whole time. But I made plans this weekend….but...
I always wished that my birthday would be on a school day, because then my friends would be actually with me and stuff. I thought I was gonna have my usual alone birthday but I just found out that there’s a competition on my birthday, so I’m going to make a cake and go compete with all my horse riding friends (which to be honest, I like better than my school friends). This makes me...
Ugh.
There is so much stuff I want for my birthday. I want an iPad, I want an iPhone, I want a Mac, I want a camera, I want clothes, I want a riding jacket, I want an eReader, I want a cool room. But none if it’s gonna happen. I’ll be lucky if I get recognition on my birthday.
I fucked everything up and I don’t know what to do. Do I talk to him? I just feel like I’m bugging him. He hasn’t replied to any of my messages. What do I do? Someone please tell me.
I fucking hate those people that think they’re just too cool, and think they’re better than everyone else. It’s like what the fuck? Who do you think you are? They treat everyone else like shit and it’s like why can’t you just be nice to people? I ask myself this every day, it’s like one of those life questions. Why can’t people just be nice?
Fuckity fuckity fuck.
So, went to the doctor and I have some sort of spine disease and my spine is all twisted and out of shape so I have to have surgery to get it straightened. Only problem is I won’t be able to ride for a year. Riding [horses] is pretty much my life s I really don’t know what to do. Why the fuck does bad stuff always happen to me. Mental health or physical health, which do I choose?
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
Friend of Mine High Wasted Shorts, Size 8 US 4 RRP $209
Clearing out my wardrobe and thought i would give to one of my sexy followers
winner will be drawn same day as american flag top (July 30th)
must be following meeeeee, no likes
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Feel free to ask any questions
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
Friend of Mine High Wasted Shorts, Size 8 US 4 RRP $209
Clearing out my wardrobe and thought i would give to one of my sexy followers
winner will be drawn same day as american flag top (July 30th)
must be following meeeeee, no likes
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Feel free to ask any questions
FREE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW, MUST BE...
trashydreamers:
Tag says Angel Biba, Brought in Melbourne, Size 8, barely worn good condition so i thought id give to one of my followers. Accidently deleted my original give away so just reblog again
MUST BE FOLLOWING;
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
feel free to ask questions, 100% legit, reblog all you like. winner drawn on July 30th when i come back...
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
Friend of Mine High Wasted Shorts, Size 8 US 4 RRP $209
Clearing out my wardrobe and thought i would give to one of my sexy followers
winner will be drawn same day as american flag top (July 30th)
must be following meeeeee, no likes
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Feel free to ask any questions
FREE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW, MUST BE...
trashydreamers:
Tag says Angel Biba, Brought in Melbourne, Size 8, barely worn good condition so i thought id give to one of my followers. Accidently deleted my original give away so just reblog again
MUST BE FOLLOWING;
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
feel free to ask questions, 100% legit, reblog all you like. winner drawn on July 30th when i come back...
FREE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW, MUST BE...
trashydreamers:
Tag says Angel Biba, Brought in Melbourne, Size 8, barely worn good condition so i thought id give to one of my followers. Accidently deleted my original give away so just reblog again
MUST BE FOLLOWING;
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
feel free to ask questions, 100% legit, reblog all you like. winner drawn on July 30th when i come back...
Saw someone saying "fuck summer" today.
Summer they don’t want you! Cum 2 me bby! :(
Sorry guize....I really like the shorts + I'm poor...
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
ONE TEASPOON ORIGINAL BONITAS SZ 8 AGED COAL
reblog to be in the draw, clearing out wardrobe and wont get much $$ if i sell so thought i would just give away to one of my lovely folllowers! draw on july 30th with my other giveaways
MUST FOLLOW ME
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
ONE TEASPOON ORIGINAL BONITAS SZ 8 AGED COAL
reblog to be in the draw, clearing out wardrobe and wont get much $$ if i sell so thought i would just give away to one of my lovely folllowers! draw on july 30th with my other giveaways
MUST FOLLOW ME
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
FREEEE GIVEAWAY, REBLOG TO BE IN THE DRAW
trashydreamers:
ONE TEASPOON ORIGINAL BONITAS SZ 8 AGED COAL
reblog to be in the draw, clearing out wardrobe and wont get much $$ if i sell so thought i would just give away to one of my lovely folllowers! draw on july 30th with my other giveaways
MUST FOLLOW ME
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
http://trashydreamers.tumblr.com/
Fuck it.
When I turn 16 I’m going to go out and get a tattoo. Of what, I don’t know. I’m uncreative as fuck so I guess I’ll just look at templates or something but whatever. I’m thinking maybe a horse, because my horses are the only things that love me, along with my dogs, cats and sheep. I love my animals.
3 tags
Oh All Time Low, you have never been more...
I'm so fucking retarded!
Well, I said before about how the guy I like (lets call him Ian) wants a girl that is like the exact opposite of me. However, I somehow got the idea from a lot of little giveaways that the girl that Ian likes might possibly be me and for that period of time dropped every single thing that I knew about myself and actually believed it. But then it all came back to the same thing, and I’m...
Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it.
When you see the guy you like making a move at someone else. You could have just personally gotten a baseball bat and whacked my heart like a fucking pinata.
Waiting for you to talk to me is so hard, and I can’t talk to you first because I’m scared I made a real dick of myself. Please talk to me, I’m sorry.
This is actually a really good way of letting stuff out…..because for so many years I’ve kept everything bottled up and I knew it wouldn’t be good for me, but who the fuck was I meant to talk to? I’m sorry if I fill your dashs up with pathetic shit all the time.
Hahahahahaha.
Just laughing because I’ve had yet another epiphany - no one loves me. I mean I knew this already but I thought that surely there’d be one person that I didn’t know about. But nah, I’ve realised that the total is a solid zero. I was just sitting watching tv with my aunty and I said something and she didn’t even bother to reply. If it was anyone else, she would have....
Going back to the thing about the guy that I like...
I just think about it, and I wonder why I even like people in the first place. Because it’s not like they could ever reciprocate that liking. I mean, what do I have to offer anybody else? Absolutely nothing. I’m an emotional wreck and no one wants that, I’m not pretty and I’m not confident. I have nothing going for me.
All I wanna do is belong.
Ya know. It’s just really hard, because I feel like all my “friends” aren’t really friends, and I don’t belong with them. I don’t even know where I do belong. I don’t know whether I should change schools or whether it’s home that’s bothering me. I just don’t know and I wish I did. I wish someone would be there for me.